February 2011
42 posts
January 2011
129 posts
It's not that I haven't given you a reason to...
My immune system and I share a mutual hatred for...
I’m not only irritated, but even more stressed out than I was before I got sick. Mmhm, that’s right, sick. I have a fever, I’m exhausted and I feel like I just want to blow my brains out. Carnival is in five days and we have our walk through for camp the following weekend. I have so much shit that I need to get done, and things that I need to stay on top of. But fuck. I just need...
I just wish I could cry.
Today was one of the best talks we’ve ever had. I don’t think anyone has ever been so proud of me in my entire life - and I think that is because no one has ever cared the way that you do.
We sometimes talk about how we’re going to feel when it’s time for us to say goodbye, but, you know what? My biggest fears are not about your absence in my future. My biggest fear is...
Everything has changed.
It is really pathetic to think that things fell apart so fast between us, mom. It’s only been a year and you’ve already given up on me once again. I don’t know what more you could want from me and I’m beginning to think that’s just it. I tried so hard this time, I broke my back trying to make you happy. I’ve tried to fix myself, this home and whatever problems...
Congratulations.
I hope you’re happy.
It’s hard to pretend that you never existed.